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	'<{title}>' => 'Feeling girly',
	'takedown' => '2017-11-01',
	'<{body}>' => <<<END
<img src="/img/CC_BY-SA_4.0/y.st./weblog/2019/02/03.jpg" alt="Steeple" class="framed-centred-image" width="649" height="480"/>
<section id="purse">
	<h2>Purse</h2>
	<p>
		I managed to get a couple more essentials into the purse, but it was a tight fit.
		I like the material it&apos;s made from though.
		It&apos;s built to take more wear than any backpack I&apos;ve ever owned, that&apos;s for sure.
		More than that though, I like the way it makes me <strong>*feel*</strong>.
		I think I&apos;m going to make carrying it a regular thing, and save the backpack for when I need to carry something bulky, such as groceries.
		I need to keep an eye out for a bigger one though.
	</p>
</section>
<section id="religion">
	<h2>Religion</h2>
	<p>
		My biggest fear going to church today was that my apparel would make me seem out-of-place.
		Obviously, I was dressed as the opposite gender that everyone assumes I am, but that wasn&apos;t even the problem.
		I don&apos;t own anything formal.
		I have black pants and black socks that I wear to work, but that&apos;s all.
		I don&apos;t have formal shirts and I don&apos;t have formal shoes.
		There were people there of all dress levels though.
		Well, all above a certain, casual point.
		I mean, no one was in tank tops or anything, but several people were there in just tee-shirts.
	</p>
	<p>
		A few people noticed a new face and came over to introduce themselves.
		The first one wasn&apos;t sure whether I&apos;d called myself &quot;Alex&quot; or &quot;Alice&quot;.
		I was a bit flattered that they thought I might be an Alice, even despite my masculine voice.
	</p>
	<p>
		It looks like they drink water and eat bread at church each week, but one of the missionaries that&apos;s been coming to my place lately confirmed that the bread likely has milk and/or eggs in it.
		So I only took the water.
	</p>
	<p>
		Apparently today&apos;s service was different than their normal services.
		Today, people got up and testified to the validity of the holy word, the existence of Yahweh, and that his son which is also himself died for us.
		It was like they were trying to prove they believe by getting up in front of everyone.
		Perhaps this is a part of trying to get on Jesus&apos; good side or something.
		Most of these people didn&apos;t even attempt to provide any evidence for their claims, and those that did just provided evidence that didn&apos;t actually prove anything.
		For example, one person claimed the beauty of nature was evidence of Yahweh, but we&apos;ve obviously evolved to favour certain conditions, so we find those conditions beautiful.
		We&apos;d find a hellish world to be beautiful too, if that&apos;s where we&apos;d evolved for millennia.
		Another person cited how much other members of the church had helped them through a stressful situation.
		If you think you&apos;re doing the work of your deity by helping people, you&apos;re going to help them.
		For that matter, if you&apos;re a part of any large group, you&apos;ll probably find several people who want to help you just because people don&apos;t want you to have to go through things alone.
		The fact that the group you saught help from was your church doesn&apos;t prove Yahweh had any hand in it.
	</p>
	<p>
		Four particular testimonies stood out to me though.
		First, someone said that they read the scriptures an hour each and every day.
		Wow.
		I guess if you believe there&apos;s an afterlife and you believe that&apos;s going to help you get to heaven, that&apos;s a small price to pay for eternal bliss, assuming heaven actually has that.
		That&apos;s a lot of time to pour into something you have no evidence of though.
		The second testimony was by someone that said reading the scriptures fills them with light.
		When I read them, I don&apos;t get that.
		Instead, all I feel is the over-controlling-ness and conceitedness of Yahweh.
		I can&apos;t help but feel that if these words had such a supernatural effect, that effect would be fairly universal.
		I would feel it too.
		I&apos;m thinking this may be some sort of placebo effect.
		If you think the words will save you, they make you feel good.
		If you instead read them for what they are, you experience feelings based on what they actually say.
		The third testimony that struck me was from someone claiming that they don&apos;t have to think about whether they scriptures are true; they just know it.
		Um, what?
		If you don&apos;t actually think about things, you can&apos;t get anywhere near the truth.
		Believing just because you&apos;re told to believe just makes you gullible.
		Gullibility is a big part of why so much evil is allowed to happen in our societies.
		The final testimony to strike me claimed that the speaker could feel a special energy radiating from some people, and they eventually learned the people that emit this radiation are all a part of the Mormon church.
		Once they realised this, they realised this must be the one true church, and joined themself.
		I&apos;m not even sure what to make of that one, to be honest, but it definitely caught my attention.
	</p>
	<p>
		After the service, one of the missionaries wanted to set up the next meeting at my place this Thursday morning.
		That&apos;s when my surgery will begin though, and it&apos;ll likely continue into the afternoon a bit.
		And then I&apos;ll need to walk home because the surgeon doesn&apos;t want me to bike until I&apos;ve healed for about a week.
		They said they&apos;d contact me later in the week though, so we&apos;ll see if that actually happens.
	</p>
	<p>
		The chapter I read in the Book of Mormon again didn&apos;t have much of note.
		I guess perhaps the general theme gets conveyed very early on, so after that, maybe there&apos;s not much of note to talk about.
		Once more though, the siblings (aside from the youngest one) start to doubt Yahweh&apos;s involvement with their current situation, and the younger sibling has to remind them that they&apos;ve literally spoken with an angel.
		At the point you&apos;ve spoken with an angel, and you actually believe them to be an angel, why are you doubting that something divine is going on in your life?
	</p>
</section>
<section id="drudgery">
	<h2>Drudgery</h2>
	<p>
		My discussion post for the day:
	</p>
	<blockquote>
		<p>
			I can&apos;t say I&apos;ve done much research on TiVo, but I&apos;ve heard the name before.
			They were one of the major reasons the $a[GNU] {$a['GPLv3']} was written.
			TiVo found a loophole in the $a[GNU] {$a['GPLv2']} and exploited it to use $a[GPL]-licensed code in their $a[DVR]s <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/TiVo#GNU_General_Public_License_and_%22Tivoization%22">without allowing users to adjust the code to meet their own needs</a>, a practice the $a[GPL] attempts to forbid.
			I can&apos;t say I condone their practices, but I&apos;ve got to hand it to them for their outside-the-box thinking.
			It&apos;s this sort of thing that helps find bugs so they can be patched, both bugs in licenses and bugs in software code.
		</p>
		<p>
			I wasn&apos;t aware TiVo devices were anything other than plain $a[DVR]s though.
			I guess that&apos;s what I get for not looking into them deeper.
			It&apos;s interesting to hear they can be used to search the Web.
		</p>
	</blockquote>
</section>
END
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